To [Nikolaus Zmeskall von Domanovecz]
Vienna, March 24, 1799

Anderson v1 pg33-34 - letter #31

 

 

       Only yesterday I told you that I would not accept your ticket. You ought to know me better than to think that I should be capable of robbing one of my friends of a pleasure in order to give that pleasure to somebody else. I abide by what I said and I herewith return the ticket to you; and I am glad that I am not so fickle has to have a different opinion every other moment, but that I hold steadfastly to what I say.

       You seemed to be offended with me yesterday, perhaps because I declared rather heatedly that you had acted wrongly in giving away the ticket. But if you bear in mind that the day before yesterday I wrote two, I repeat two, letters about this, one to L[ichnowsky] and one to the Princess, in order to secure one ticket, then you will not be surprised. Besides, I am not as cold-hearted as you are; and moreover I realized that the pleasure I wanted to give someone with this ticket was not to be. However I immediately forgot my disappointment; for what cannot be altered should not be made the subject of a quarrel.

       I am willing to admit the value of your bonhomie. But my complaint to heaven is that it is difficult for a friendship to thrive under such conditions.

                     Yet I am not less than I ever was
                                                                            your friend
                                                                                            L. v. Beethoven

       I am sending you the ticket so very late, because early this morning I had to send off yours, or else it could not have been used. And I have only now received mine which I am sending to you at once. Even if I had received no ticket, yet you would have been sent one in any case.